As a non-traditional student or just a single woman of my age, I guess it's difficult to think about relationships with men and what is supposed to be "Mr. Right". Before I get started on my little escapade, let me say that I truly think God has a plan for everyone and that includes relationships, it's just whether we choose to listen and follow his plan or be impatient and "go on our own".
Dating has become a chapter in my life that I just can't wait to read and get to the end to see the happy ending. It's been very up and down and I've been able to take something out of every single date, good and bad. For the most part, I choose to "not" date. The majority of the reason is because there just is not any time left in my little schedule and I think it's important to have the desire to make it count and be a priority.
Relationships are very time consuming, if you want to do them right and I do. I also have issues with so many of the men, and yes, I'm stereotyping... that come with so much baggage. I was married to the perfect man for 16 years and thought it was forever, he chose to spend the rest of his life with someone else so that leaves me pondering... is there a Mr. Right? Is there really a man that knows how to let me clean and not feel like he has to do it himself to help out, it would be all wrong? Or someone who has not been married 2-3 times, paying alimony and child support for kids from each marriage? What about putting up with my schedule and when I come home and just want pb&j for dinner, which is a current staple, will say "yay"? And first and foremost, will be a leader in our household making sure we all love God in a strong way.
I think about how nice it would be to have someone who knows me so well, who enjoys being with me and smiles when I make a joke, who will just hug me when I'm having a bad day or would just like to know my secrets and love me anyway. I miss the intimacy and accountability, the "always" being there for a couples night out, or knowing that if there is a father/daughter dance, my daughter would have someone to take her.
It's very much a give & take. I also enjoy my freedom, for now! I know that I can meet a friend for lunch and not have to worry about if it's in the budget, I do my budget. Or if I can just grab a pizza on the way home from class, I decide what's for dinner. I can schedule 20 credits for this semester and know that I'm the only one it's going to drain...
For now, it's just a simple question... is there a Mr. Right? I dunno, maybe!!! All in God's time!
Dating has become a chapter in my life that I just can't wait to read and get to the end to see the happy ending. It's been very up and down and I've been able to take something out of every single date, good and bad. For the most part, I choose to "not" date. The majority of the reason is because there just is not any time left in my little schedule and I think it's important to have the desire to make it count and be a priority.
Relationships are very time consuming, if you want to do them right and I do. I also have issues with so many of the men, and yes, I'm stereotyping... that come with so much baggage. I was married to the perfect man for 16 years and thought it was forever, he chose to spend the rest of his life with someone else so that leaves me pondering... is there a Mr. Right? Is there really a man that knows how to let me clean and not feel like he has to do it himself to help out, it would be all wrong? Or someone who has not been married 2-3 times, paying alimony and child support for kids from each marriage? What about putting up with my schedule and when I come home and just want pb&j for dinner, which is a current staple, will say "yay"? And first and foremost, will be a leader in our household making sure we all love God in a strong way.
I think about how nice it would be to have someone who knows me so well, who enjoys being with me and smiles when I make a joke, who will just hug me when I'm having a bad day or would just like to know my secrets and love me anyway. I miss the intimacy and accountability, the "always" being there for a couples night out, or knowing that if there is a father/daughter dance, my daughter would have someone to take her.
It's very much a give & take. I also enjoy my freedom, for now! I know that I can meet a friend for lunch and not have to worry about if it's in the budget, I do my budget. Or if I can just grab a pizza on the way home from class, I decide what's for dinner. I can schedule 20 credits for this semester and know that I'm the only one it's going to drain...
For now, it's just a simple question... is there a Mr. Right? I dunno, maybe!!! All in God's time!
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